I can't believe its' been 3 years since I have written on here. In those 3 years, I really have been on a journey. My most growth in this journey is on and in myself. I stopped allowing my husband and children to treat me like a servant. I spoke and refused to allow them or anyone else to manipulate me any longer. It forced them to open their eyes and make changes.

I started living.
I began to breath.
I found my own voice.

And I am still growing.

I still am afraid of not being an independent, financial independent woman. That is my dream and goal.

I need to accomplish this.

But, in mean time, I finally let go.

My husband and I were separated for 6 months, in the same house,but still, I would not have anything to do with marriage or him.

2013 was a year from hell.

Physically, I ended up with 2 blood clots. But, still started my journey to changing my life style. Eating habits, what I buy, how much I eat, how I eat it, working out, creating that amazing life style that changed me forever.

I am so ging ho for all natural stuff.

Organic everything, fresh veggies and fruits, smoothies and juices.

I incorporate essential oils into my life now too.

I also, have cleansed my heart and mind in this journey.

No more poisonous thoughts, no more poisonous words.

Forgiveness has flooded my world, my mind, my soul.

And my life has changed.

So, yes, I have been on a journey. Of great angst, great sorrow, deep sadness,unlimited fear, finding unending strength, unlimited fearlessness, exhilarating possibilities, joy, happiness, a little bit of a direction.